Spinnin' right round in star dust

"This is only temporary and too shall pass"
but living the moment is can be an extraordinarily large pain in the ass.
You knew better, he wanted sustainability
turns out your REAL fears are required for vulnerability

I got you to sleep, I secured your home

I stood here with you, stood up off my thrown
If it's a fact that love can survive
Then know you're truth first
you need to decide.

What are your wants. What are your needs? What is essential? Where are you going?

Aggression can do many things

but it's never built a single thing
Wisdom, and planning, and understanding
are what you need for sustainability.

In the morning, we'll cry. You'll ask again, "Why?"
and I'll repeat your alibi.
Remind you e did what we had to
ask you, again, what it means to be true.
consider conducting our night through
and digest every minute.
Don't let the sorrow take you over,
in love you get hurt.
Gentlemen, usually do.

You make me wanna get love drunk on lust
retrain my heart how to trust
ya keep me spinnin right round in star dust

Debut Haus

My friend Allison and I decided to move in together a while ago. We both live in shit holes we call Gnome Homes. Every wall in my apt has 1969 wood paneling but one. This savior wall is covered in 1982 popular orange shag carpeting. Totally better than sheet rock. This wood paneling is 100% to blame for my current life problems. It's revolting, and I challenge the most well-adjusted queer to live a year in this place and not come out with a depressive disorder.

We looked at two places yesterday. A powder blue ranch that was atrosh and way too tiny, and then the Haus. It's huge. You walk up a classic porch off an angled exterior into the living room. Through the living room you enter a foyer. To your left is a family room, to your right the stairs leading to the second floor. The kitchen isn't enormous, but doesn't feel tight. The natural lighting in the house makes each room light up from the floor up. This reminds me of my parent's house. The bath is off of the kitchen, followed by a washroom and a the steps leading to the basement. The bath is average size and can accommodate two people comfortably. Washroom will fit a washer and dryer easily with room to spare. Basement isn't finished, but a typical Iowa basement. It'll do in a Twister.

Up the stairs to the 2nd floor, you see a small child-sized room painted blue. It will need to be repainted, but has plenty of light and will fit the munchkin well. Across the landing is the master bedroom. Large angular ceilings and windows on each wall. To the left and down a short hall is the secondary bedroom. A walk-closet, and not small. Do-able.

I'm not sure who's moving into the Master yet. It's affordable. I can have pets. I can smoke in the house, though I won't with the yungin 'round. 'Cuz I just cant.

My roomate is great. We share the same sense of humor, and over all view of the world. We have similar goals and similar interests. IE, We're good friends, and I'm uber excited.



I'm concerned about a friend of mine. He's been cruising the ManHunt lately trolling for 3-somes. He's using it as a sociological experiment, so far, but I fear he'll end up getting into "Mommy and Daughter" role play soon.

I really want a dog. I've lived without one for 5 years, and I miss it lots and lots. Logic isn't really applicable here.

I've got to clean and pack today. Let's see if that happens.

xoxo
Natey